Failures in life

Every 60 seconds you spend being sad over something / someone is a minute of happiness you can never buy back.

Hey guys sorry for not updating my blog for awhile because i was really busy with some school event .

It was the first time I've ever organized an event.It's called Cirque du Soleil. Well within two weeks our team manage to get sponsors , put up some great set ups for the venue , sold about 140 tickets but everything went smooth until the event day itself. It was raining , the itinerary was screwed up as hell , all the people started leaving half way throughout the event , the crowd was dead , some of the performances are bad , some last minute error with the popcorn machine , our game booths were scrapped , our best dress award procedures were not written down clearly and we had problems with the managements.

It was at that point i realize that , everything that we've dreamt of and picture didn't came true. Nothing went well , everything went wrong. We didn't have enough people looking at the event on that day , we only had 7 people organizing the entire event and 6 of us had performances. We couldn't be on the floor looking over the event. People were laughing and saying "what a bad event and such a waste of time"

At that point of my life , i felt disappointed , i felt like i've led everyone down the drain , i've jumped off the edge of a cliff myself , led the entire club down a ditch , literary take my teacher's reputation and just flung it out the window . The worst thing is that , before all of this happen , i actually promised everyone that this is going to be the best event and stuff to pursue people to buy the tickets and they really had faith in us . Do you know how hard i try to even forget about this event.

I've been running away from all of these problems , running away from the mistakes that i've made , runnin away from all the blame , and i really felt like i'm such an embarrassament , i should just disappear from this College. It was a point in life where i sworn i will never ever do an event again , i couldn't accept failure it wasn't in my book. F.A.I.L.U.R.E is never something that i could take easily. I always think that I will never fail but i was wrong.

Quotes

" you will always picture something to be really perfect but the truth is reality is not like that "

Every time when my mom or anyone ask me about the event , i would just yell and say "CAN U NOT TALK ABOUT IT" IT ALREADY OVER CAN YOU PLEASE STOP FUCKING ASKING ME! its already depressing enough that nothing turned out right , i've been scolded by everyone for gods sake give me a break!

It was hard for me to accept but i think i didn't realize that it was even harder for people around me because i would never smile or talk about it. When people are trying to help me out and try to explain to me that failures are essential in life for you to learn and grow i would definetly COCKBLOCK them. I just burst into tears i really hope that i had a remote control in life so i can rewind it back and just click "select all" and "DELETE" but the truth is , you can never forget or try to erase what you do in life. It's just part of learning and growing .

Always remember

#1 you are not superman , you cannot take the world on your shoulders alone.

#2 even if being strong is not an option anymore , at least talk to someone about it

#3 don't keep everything to yourself cause it will do you no good

#4 when someone is trying to advise you don't cockblock them cause sometimes what they say might be true but because of your fucking ego you just took it forgranted.

#5 never ever lose faith in doing anything after you failure

#6 always plan ahead with your team not just 2 weeks before the event as it will never turn out right.

Look at the bright side , at least after thinking through everything i can finally not stare at the floor when i'm walking in college. I can finally look up and tell everyone "Hey Even Thomas Edison failed 2000 times trying to invent a light bulb and only at his 2001 attempt it manage to invent a light bulb! I've only failed once! I still have 2000 times to learn , grow , develop and succeed "

Quotes

"Success never comes easy , face it , you know you failed more than ones before you manage to spread your wings and fly. "

Signing out
-Crystalbebe-
Status :Happy :)

Nail ARTS

No matter how boy-ish you are , how much you hate going shopping or how much you dislike applying make up , one thing you can never run away from is the satisfaction of getting your nails done by someone else.
It's like a every female favourite thing :)
being able to sit down in a nice seat , being pampered like a queen! having someone to massage your hands and feet for you , clean your nails and apply that gorgeous nail varnish on your finger nails it's just heavenly!
The music around you playing in a soft and swift pace it's just the best thing to do when you are stressed out! go to any nail boutique to get your nails done! it just makes you feel happy after that! Satisfaction level 100% , mood immediately rises up to 101% :)
But one BIG problem about getting a manicure is that its super expensive! especially the ones with the diamonds , blings , 3D or extensions! D:
But fear not!!!! nail polishes can be bought at any Watson shop or cosmetic shops :) so its super convenient!
Well , some nail polishes are not very good so you often don't get the results you expected :/ The best will probably be O.P.I since at any nail boutique you will see them use it ! and it's consider the most expensive brand! The other time i went to a cosmetic shop to check on O.P.I's BURLESQUE collection it cost around RM55 for one bottle of nail varnish! Its so so so expensive D: for teenagers without income like me well i can't afford to buy one!
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-signing out -
Crystalbebe

What ifs : Possibilities

" Don't know what tomorrow brings but i'm still hoping that you are the one for me , what if i have you and you have me...." -Jason Derulo- What if

You know there are so many what ifs in this world, so many possibilities and so many steps to take in order to choose the correct path. So many doubts and consequences in life. Aren't you tired? Well i am.
Eg: when you want to buy a bag online , you will have to consider "WHAT IF THE BAG IS NOT AS GOOD AS IT LOOK LIKE??" but after awhile it just kills your desire and you go like "PFFTTTT forget about it...better don't lar even though i like it but yeah...:/ "
Human always have doubts , maybe too much doubts thats why we are often not determined enough to make a decision. Some times in some worst case senario , we'd probably ask someone else to make the decision for us because we are so sick and tired of having so many things to consider. It's just so nerve wrecking !


We are human , we have feelings , we tend to fall in love with this one person but yet there will always be this stage called the mysterious " I DON'T KNOW IF SHE/HE FEELS THE SAME WAY AS I DO " . So we secretly admire them and when people ask "hey why don't you just tell them how you really feel inside?" you will have doubts , fear and anxiety! You'd probably tell that person "ARE YOU CRAZY! WHAT IF HE/SHE DON'T LIKE ME THEN WOULDN'T I LOOK STUPID N SHIT?!" or you might also say "DON'T WANT LAR...LATER HE/SHE DON'T FEEL THE SAME WAY AS I DO THEN THEY AVOID ME "
So because of all these doubts and fear , at the end you choose to keep it all to yourself , sometimes because of our doubts , we missed out on all the chances to be with that person and make that person smile.

At the end of the day , we will probably regret... Even if that relationship was not meant to be and it got screwed up big time at the end , still you would regret on one thing.
"you will regret on the chances you lose , not the chances you take"
even if it turns out all ugly and fucked up , but you can tell yourself "Hey at least we had was what I desired and crave for once upon a time."


Remember those days when you were a kid? you didn't even have to think about whats going to happen tomorrow or next? you just do what you feel is right , and follow your heart? even if it makes you look stupid but at the end of the day it was a good lesson learnt .
MISTAKES ARE MEANT TO BE MADE SO THAT YOU CAN GROW UP AND LEARN HOW TO NOT HIT YOUR HEAD ON THE SAME WALL AGAIN.
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Love is a funny little thing :)
You can meet someone 2 years ago at a party and not trust that they like you ,
after 2 years you meet them again at the same party ,
you find out that he/she never really changed and you have a lot in common just that back then you didn't take the initiative to look in it ,
but now you feel that funny little feelings bubbling inside your heart .
you may have doubts like is he/she worth my time ,
is he/she worth me falling in love again

what if i get hurt again ,
what if he/she is the same like the one that broke my heart ?
What if he/she doesn't like me for who i am
what if he/she is just like the rest of them , taking advantage of my willingness to love them head over heels.
So many what ifs so many possibilities. i bet you've learnt this in maths ! Possibilities that anything can happen is probably 10000000000000000000000000000 until it can wrap the world with words for a few rounds!
You only have one life , how long it is no one knows. If you love someone then just give it a go , tell them how you really feel inside. Because you will never know whats going to happen in the end if you never took a step out of your fear circle .


he is worth my time , love and affort because he used his actions to prove that he is capable of keeping his promises. Don't know whats going to happen in the future , but all i know is for now i just hope that moment last forever :)
Happiness , Laughter , Joy , Fearless , Care and Love


Others can talk crap about me, but this is my life , i choose this path myself I'll bare all the consequences because i love him.
I can always talk to him about anything he is like a best friend and lover to me,
laugh about nothing ,
sing songs in the car even though my voice is horrible ,
take a long walk on the beach and sit down watching the sun set ,
watch movies on the couch ,
you remember all the little things that meant a lot to me.
you always crack lame and cold jokes in the car even if its not funny you just make me laugh for no reason :)





-Crystalbebe-
Signing out

Silly Dilly Lily

When reading this post , please use some imagination and picture yourself in it :)

As you sit down by the window , have you ever drift away in thin air? Drift away back when you are really young and back when you had your first boyfriend.
Love when you are young is pure true and innocent love , no demands , no expectations and no worries . Remember how shy you were when a boy first held your hands and you stared down at the floor and start blushing like you applied too much blusher on your face. Back then , holding hands is consider a really big deal , holding hands means a lot but as you grow older and as you step into a different stage in life , love become less innocent , love becomes more demanding , more expectations from the person you love , more responsibilities , more anger , more worries about the future its just different.
Love when you are young and when you are older , its different and has its own pros and cons.

Pros about love when you are young is that love really means pure love , no intention of cheating and love when you are young is more honest because when you are young you tend to be more straight forward . Eg: If i like you , i'll tell you but if i don't , i'll tell you too. Even if you are going to hate me i'll still tell you because we are still young , its not like we are not going to meet other people anyways.

Cons about love when you are young is that , you are too young , its hard to make it last til the end cause you tend to meet a lot of different people along the way and you might find that the interest and attraction between you and him/her just slowly fades away.

Love when you are young is called puppy love , its called pure emotions . Like it take it , don't like it leave it. Its fast and quick unless you've set your mind and decided that he/she will be THE ONE! then that's a different story :)

Love when you get older it gets less innocent , responsibilities take in account , you have to think about the future is he/she the suitable one , is he/she capable to cope up with the life you are living , can he/she be honest and loyal to you. Things just get more complicated when you get older . When you are young , love is like a game , but when you get older , love is not a game anymore , you have to think about so many things is he/she the one that i really love , is he/she the one that can make me happy , is he/she the one that i feel comfortable being with. Time is never prepared to be your friend and wait for you everyday. When you start to age , time just runs faster and you just have to notice that you can't always be taking and leaving love is not a bus stop anymore. Love when you get older tends to get more serious and realistic and not your ordinary fairy tale story.

When you get older being able to show your love to someone by actions, being comfortable with someone ,being able to communicate with that person,being happy everyday when he/she is around, being able to laugh at stupid lame jokes for hours , being able to remove your everyday life mask on your face and be yourself is really all that matters .

Always remember if you love someone don't just say it because its useless , actions speak louder than words. Show them your appreciation even though its just a small action it really means a lot.
Because if you don't , at the end of the day , you will just regret all the chances you missed out and blame it on the TIMING.

Spark In Your Eyes , Fire in your soul

Remember how you felt when you are 6 years old ?
That spark in your eyes and that certain feeling of excitment to see Tomorrow??
Its that feeling you have when you wake up in the morning with that smile on your face and go like "OH YEAH! ITS A BRAND NEW DAY WOOHOOO , I WONDER WHAT ARE WE GOING TO DO TODAY!"
Especially during Festivals like Chinese New Year or celebrations like Children's Day , you feel so energetic and you will get up 5am in the morning and can't wait to get on the road! When we are young , CNY seems to be this fun celebration you know! Like running around with your cousins , playing hide and seek , drink coke and burp loudly *Have burping competitions* , excitement to open up all your angpau packet , excited to see what food is prepared on the dining table and excited to listen to all these loud chinese new year songs .
As a year go by and another year pass , that spark of fire seems to slowly fade away like melted chocolate under the rain , slowly being diluted and slowly disappear leaving no trace behind. When you grow older , maybe when you are 14 years old , Chinese New Year seems to be boring , you can't even wake up that early anymore , when your cousins come to your house or when you go to your cousins house , you probably end up watching TV and not talking that much. You start to not enjoy chinese new year songs cause its so annoying . You don't play hide and seek anymore its just getting more and more boring. The excitment to see Tomorrow just slowly dies off.

Maybe because when we grow older , we tend to see more truth behind the lies that we never notice when we are younger. We tend to have more choices when we grow older , more decisions to be made , more reality check , more cruel facts , more mistakes made that made us guilty and a clearer look on what is happening in this society and people around us.
Things changes from time to time , even we change from time to time without noticing . Time made us all grow up even if we refuse to grow up , refuse to take notice or understand what is going on in our lives , eventually we will have to get out of our egg shells and see the world.
Well Magics always happen in fairy tales , even in real life they do . In life you will always meet that feel people that will make you feel motivated and make you feel that tomorrow will be a better day , and they can always make you feel that living in this world is really worth it because you got a goal to follow and a dream to be completed.
Tomorrow will only be full of hope if today someone gave you something to believe in :)



"One bad thing about human is that we can never predict what is going to happen tomorrow , but god is fair and He gave us a choice to live today full of laughter and joy so that no regrets will be made"-Quotes by Crystalbebe

Song dedicated to everyone who is currently reading this post :)




-signing out-
Crystalbebe1301
Brand New Day ♥

Who do you think you are

wassup bro! Don't like that la MAcaaaaa!!!!! i didn't mean to win all your money in a game of black jack lar!!! Broo RM1 only marrr ahahah XD


Hey :) its me again! Happy chinese new year!
this year was the best chinese new year ever cause my every year resolution finally came true! I've always wanted to have a real family reuion and this year , thank you lord :) thank you for giving me a chance to have a real reunion not even one person is lack in this reunion and i love it..
it was a touching scene to see how a father and his son reunite again after so long being away and so caught up with life.
This year everyone's faces are happier i saw extra smiles and tears inside peoples' eyes...
No matter what mistakes you did , the only one that will stand by your side and be with you are always your family...




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21 Jan 12, 02:52 AM
forget it: type like you is ubiquitous in this day and age. sad case.
21 Jan 12, 02:46 AM
forget it: between drunk and easy and stupid. just that. period. opps. except you miraculously grow some brain and realise your type is a no go ****. lthxbyai
21 Jan 12, 02:44 AM
forget it: judging from everything that you are, forget it, you, like many unfortunate ones in the world, will never yes never understand or even get close to the real meaning of a relationship and border
21 Jan 12, 02:39 AM
i will retain anonymity: god pls, dont be stupid you lil girl. and, you've truly seen nothing yet so dont use the word love coz people your age might have experienced it, but not you. dont shame the word. wake up
21 Jan 12, 02:38 AM
i will retain anonymity: please dont make anything out of what happened to you. hope no intimacy was involved and never wiill till real marriage, after it not before. you're a pretty girl. dont be an idiot pls.
21 Jan 12, 02:22 AM
fact: disappointedly, lack of discipline!
21 Jan 12, 02:21 AM
fact: two weeks? come on. simply means you were never serious and are too open minded of a person. not an ideal person to be with by any standards. no wish for rudeness but wake up.
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Whatever lar :D u can talk all you want be my guest ;) IDGAF! unfortunate guy/girl that wants attention from a blog that is not even famous D: OMG~!
hahahaha :D Come on lar i can't blame you for being so shallow cause you obviously don't know the whole story and you don't know me :) i don't blame you lar dude who wrote this *NOT SO MEAN* comments XP "sense my sarcasm". I suggest that you should think both ways and both sides when you try to comment and say something , my point of view is 360 degrees different than u!Its my blog! i don't have to keep my thoughts to myself cause i can write and do whatever i want :) U on the other hand should should keep your thoughts to yourself. If you think that i have never loved before then so be it lar :) i know what i'm doing , where i'm going from here. Your opinion is neither require nor desired.FYI all these blog posts its just part of the story i don't write the full stories so yeah! Say all you want , be my guest :D
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Second Week Of College

College is awesome no doubts about it! Its relaxing , everyone is chilling its really like the college/school life you see in Movies or Gossip Girl Drama etc etc! There are lockers in college , when you walk down the hall way you see people sitting around in those round tables near the hallway , then there are these water dispenser , junk food dispenser even maggie mee cup dispenser! The library is so comfortable the chairs , the design it really makes you feel as if you are in USA's Ivy league schools!
Every you go its never hot or warm in the campus except for the toilet well , they don't put air conditioner in the toilet so obviously its the only warm place you can find!
Moreover , you do not have to ever walk stairs! because we have escalators in the college campus , there is even a ECA section where there are pool table , table tennis area , a longue for people to sit and chill! Beisdes that , they have a lot of quiet zone study room where it sorta look like glass cubes!
You can walk down the hall way and smile at anyone and they will smile back at you! its so fun you get to chill and really hang out , meet NEW PEOPLE! from DIFFERENT SChool , different countries! Its really great! and they have a wide range of Extra curricular activities! You get your own tag its like a pass to enter the school and stuff like that! In the Labs you dont have to share equipments with your friends and stuff because you get your own lab area and your own set of equipments so its really awesome cause you never have to share your experiment results or like wait for your turn to carry out the experiment.
I bet you are all starting to wonder which college am i in rite?!!! Taylor's College Sri Hartamas :) well i bet there are a lot of bad press saying that you know the fees is really expensive , the teachers are not very experience or the teacher are always MIA!
well i'm here to clear things up for you and clear the fog that is blurring your eyes.
Yes the fees is really expensive compared to other colleges because it has the kinda quality!
The teachers here are really friendly and experience , they are really good at what they are doing :) their communications skills are 120% and you have the freedom to talk or point out what you think its wrong or right. In taylor's there are only maximum 25 people in a class room so you get really cozy with them and you don't have an excuse to be a coward and keep quiet if you don't know something .
Teachers here even give one-on-one time with those who request extra tutoring , They are willing to explain the same thing to you for a thousand times!
Well i bet you will be wondering how i know that rite?! I've just been in college for like 1 weeks and 2 days and i've asked the teachers a lot of questions . I even asked the Economic's teacher this particular question for like 3 times and she had to explain it to the whole class for 3 times but she didn't scold me! Well if i were to ask my secondary school teacher for 3 times i think i would be standing outside of the class by now XD or i'll probably get black listed by my teacher! but well the LECTURERs here are more than willing to teach and explain they will be mad if we just kept quiet and not tell them what we don't understand.

I love My COLLEGE!!! Woohoooo
catch up with me as i will start posting about a real life story of a father and a daughter :)